The title of this post is not true, I just said that because I am watching Whose Line Is It, Anyway. I LOVE this show. I loved it since it started a million years ago and I am very happy it is back on. I love the skit where Colin is the arms for Ryan and he just makes him eat a lot of really gross stuff and he smears it all over his face. Normally something like that would completely freak me out, I HATE food on faces, but this is just funny. It is always something like spaghetti or mashed potatoes and Ryan just goes on and on talking while Colin, as his arms, combines gross things and puts it all in Ryan’s mouth. Then Ryan has to eat it because it is being shoved in his mouth.
Tonight they have a guest and she is one of the Real Housewives of somewhere, and her name is Kyle but she is a woman. She was in a skit where Colin talked for her and she just had to act out what he was saying, and at one point he said “I can do the splits” and she did the splits perfectly right then and there. And if we assume it is true that it is not rehearsed, then that is pretty impressive. Then Wayne Brady took off his shoes so he could do the splits, too (he could not), and Housewife Kyle took his shoes when she left the stage and I thought that was funny.
Another Housewife Of Some Sort that I like is the lady from Glee, she is just really, really funny. Coach Roz is her name on Glee.
Anyway, my original intent of this post was to talk about how very sensitive I am. I read this article and it is almost all true. It is not true that I work well in groups, because I do not. I am not going to linger on each point, but I, of course, have something to say about each point. Please refer to the article as I take you through Darcy’s Version Of A Highly Sensitive Person.
The first one is that we feel more deeply. That is stupid because that is a given, if you are sensitive of course you feel more deeply. For me, this means I get so caught up in imagining what it must be like to be a deer about to get hit by a car, or a kitten frozen to the sidewalk (that happened, I am not even kidding), or a squirrel trying to cross the street and dashing back and forth – I get so caught up in those thoughts that I sincerely feel like I am in that position. I have, on a fairly regular basis, cried my way home from work (or any other car ride somewhere) because I thought/felt too deeply about something. There was a period of time where I thought too much about letters I would write to people if I were dying, and what I would say to them. It was not me dying that made me cry, for the record, it was what I would say to people.
Number two goes with number one and I do not really see the difference. Number two says that we are more emotionally reactive. I do not know what the difference between this and the first one is.
Number three – I am very used to hearing “don’t be so sensitive”, and in fact, I have written a blog post about it. Ok, well, sort of – that post is only partially about being called sensitive.
Number four is that we prefer to exercise solo. The reasoning the article gives is that we do not like to be watched while playing team sports. I also think this one is stupid because I do not like to be watched while doing anything.
Number five says that it takes longer for us to make decisions. That is does not mean I am indecisive, because I am not. I am a very decisive person. But I do take longer to decide things. Once I decide on something, then there is no going back, so that is why I am not indecisive.
Number six says we get more upset if we make a wrong decision and I have nothing to say about that.
Seven – we are extremely detail oriented. This is my ongoing problem in life and work. I see steps 1-5 but not what they add up to. I could follow something step by step and not realize what I am building until it is finished.
Number nine – we work well in team environments. No we do not. That is dumb. If we are overly sensitive and do not like people watching us, why would we want to open ourselves up to rejection and ridicule by working in a group and putting our ideas out there to be judged by others? This one is wrong, author of 16 Habits of Highly Sensitive People.
Ten – we are more prone to depression and anxiety. Anxiety? ME?? Pffffft! This entire blog proves how NOT ANXIOUS I AM! (that was sarcasm) (I also cannot lie even if it for a joke that everyone knew was a joke without me pointing it out).
Eleven is possibly the most important one on the list. That annoying noise probably IS more annoying to a sensitive person. This explains my sudden outbursts of “I HEAR A BEEPING NOISE” while everyone else says, calmly, “Why yes, there is a beeping noise”. It is also why I will suddenly yell at Christine after she has been making a noise for three minutes, and then out it comes….”OMG STOP THAT!” and I scare her. It builds up, you see, that noise sensitivity, and then it comes exploding out my mouth.
Number twelve is also very important – violent movies are the worst. I cannot handle them. One time AJ and I were watching tv, which means we were watching what AJ wanted to watch because I was rarely allowed to choose. So we were watching something violent and I was getting increasingly anxious to the point of panicking and I finally just closed my eyes. AJ told me when it was safe to open them and I opened my eyes to something involving a knife and a person’s hand. I flapped and screamed, not because I wanted to be dramatic, but because that was my panicked real reaction, and AJ got really mad and yelled at me for being so sensitive (number three) and that it was not a big deal and he just wanted to relax and goddamn it, why couldn’t I just act normally? At this point I started crying (number thirteen which has not happened yet) and I ran out of his house and got in my car and drove home, shaking and crying.
Number thirteen, we cry more easily. I cry when I am mad, sad, upset, scared, nervous, startled, traumatized….the list goes on.
Number fourteen is that we are more polite than your average person. I am probably one of the most polite people you will ever meet. I apologize when people bump into me and thank people for saying hello to me. One time I got hit by a car in a parking lot and I said “My God, I almost just died” and apologized profusely to the people passing by. Another time I fell out of Dobama Theatre and my face and arms were bloody and when someone came up to ask if I was ok, I apologized to them.
Number fifteen is that we are more sensitive to criticism which seems very obvious to me.
The last one is that we prefer cubicles to open offices because just like we enjoy working out alone, we enjoy working alone. To me this completely contradicts number nine, we work well in team environments. I like cubicles.
So that is that. There is something living in the wall of my Family Room and Mr. Meow Meow stares at the wall at lot. Sabrina Von Squishy used to stare at the same spot.